What does it mean to be in withdrawal?
Pharmacology is not as much art or science; drugs are a mixture of “it works, but we don’t know why, or even how.”
If your psychiatrist tells you they “diagnose and treat” by “gut feelings” find a new one. Psychiatrists are just people, and just like explaining to your loved ones that you’re “not okay, not right in the head, or ‘losing it'” you may not say what they need you to in order to help you.
It’s okay to find a new doctor.
It’s okay to get a second or third opinion.
It’s okay to ask forums and others suffering, or who have suffered, what they did, found, or failed to do.
Effexor XR is a strong, potent drug.
Wellbutrin is a strong, potent drug.
Zoloft is a strong, potent drug.
Lyrica is a strong, dangerous, and potent drug.
You are responsible and accountable for yourself. The doctors are there to diagnose and give you tools called “treatment.”
It is up to you to cure yourself. No one can help you with this part.
But people can support you with this part.
If you are lonely, you are not alone. If you are scared, it is good to be scared. That means things are still working, that means your system has something wrong, it wants you to know, those messages are coming through.
If you can’t feel anything, that will pass. If you are in a fog, that will clear. If you are in pain, monitor it. Keep tabs on your own copy of your chart.
If you think you should go to the hospital, go.
Pain will waft between physical and psychological. The device you typically use to deal with that pain is in a state of dysfunction, your brain is not operating at 100%. It’s fighting what has been done to it.
Rely on others. Depend on yourself. Do not give up.
It won’t get better quickly. It could take weeks, months, a year— longer.
But it will get easier. Your brain will heal, your body needs it to, all your organs are going to support healing what has been done to you.
You may have been accountable for whatever drug use has resulted in this.
But you are not responsible for the pain, the suffering, the misery, the dread.
You are responsible for your recovery. No one will recover you for you. They will help, some will hinder, but they are not going to save you.
They will help to save you. You still have to save yourself.
No matter how much your drowning, keep treading, kicking, breathing.
No matter how hard it is, you cannot stop.
We all want a do-over, we all want it to end.
Anyone who has ever suffered this pain, knows exactly the feeling of wanting To End.
But that is the one thing you cannot do.
Find your resources. Get safe. Rock for hours in a corner if you need to. Cry until you’re sick. Scream. Pray. Go to the ER, they aren’t judging you, they just aren’t able to feel how much this hurts.
You cannot End.
Great things happen when the right people end up in the wrong place.
You’re the right person. You’re in the wrong place.
Something great will happen.
Just stay with us.