I’ve been a dazzling failure
wrapped up in ego and farce
I’ve known lies to be my jailor
and daydreams to be my stars.
I’ve rinsed away regrets
only to fish them out the drain
I’ve taken pills and yet
I can still feel the pain.
I’m living without moving
as stagnant as the sky-
while all the worlds spinning
it seems to pass me by.
I’ve lived a month too many
and breathed with desperate greed
and while each breaths been plenty
it seems it’s never all I need.
I need some arms to hold me
some eyes to laugh with lines
I want someone to see
past all these sorrowful times.
I’ve carried sins with memories,
like jewelry, fastened on,
and with each of those stories,
comes another stagnant dawn:
all would have’s, could of’s, maybe’s,
all chances lost in time
all excuses and “I’m Crazy’s”
that could have made you mine.
But now there’s just the inkwell
and the love notes on the page,
and with a tolling knell
you can hear them play.
I hope the song can reach you,
I hope my tears can make it rain,
cause you were one of the few
that could treat away my pain.