i never wanted to last this long
too long a rest in the middle of the swan song
too many beats, a note too much
the metronomes tick a heart-pressing crush;
i never wanted choices or decisions or forevers
i never wanted smiles, or sadness, or ‘never evers.’
i always thought of Springtimes, of Autumn and long goodbyes
i never wanted tear drops falling from my eyes.
i never wanted breakups, or kisses in the rain
i never wanted perfect moments, followed with vicious pain
i never sought the answers for life and love and God
i never complained of rocks that littered the path I trod.
I never thought that life was ever unfair or unkind
i always took the time to casually speak my mind
i gave others the benefit of doubts and many more
i never closed a window, never locked a door.
i never wanted to breathe the air of a graveyard day
or smell the musty scent as someone goes away
i never wanted to compose goodbyes and prayers for those who’d gone
i never ever wanted to ever last this long.